These past few days have really been emotion-heavy for me. It's been hard figuring out what I should do to make things right. Actually, that part hasn't been hard; the hard part was actually going through and trying to make things right, and then sitting on the edge of my seat and not knowing how things would turn out. I feel so wiped out. I don't know how I'll make it through the rest of the summer. ~77 days until school starts up again. I hope this year goes better than last year. I kind of have that choking feeling at the back of my throat and I want to vomit. And then it would represent all the shit that happened last year, and I could start again with an empty stomach. I feel sick.