I feel like I want to retire from everything. I just want to start over and have a good job and do well in school and have friends who aren't too busy for me. I hate being left alone to my thoughts every day. I don't know what's up with any of my friends; most of them I haven't talked to in a while. Who knows if we're even still friends. I want someone to distract me from all of the terrible things that I think about myself when I'm stuck at home every night.